Life in the Fast Lane..

Wow! It's been quite some time since I've posted on this blog. I'm slipping!

My life has made some definite changes over the past few months. They've come at break neck speed. It's amazing how time does seem to be the balm that comforts the pain. While I still miss my husband to no end, the sting has lessened somewhat. Getting out & meeting people has helped that immensely.

The young man that came into my life at seemingly the right moment has made some changes in his life. Although I don't know if the changes are permanent, I do know that he seems more like he should be. We keep in touch on a daily basis and he shares alot of his life w/me in conversation. I wasn't sure if I really was ready for any type of relationship w/this man or any other for that matter, but I find myself enjoying the moments that we share. We are not "an item" by any means, but we do have a building relationship...one stone at a time.

He makes me smile and I hadn't done that in quite some time. He lifted my heart when I didn't think it would ever feel light again. He doesn't understand the enormity of what he did for me by just being himself. He has a long way to go in the maturity department even though he's 45y/o. His emotional man is somewhat stunted. That's frustrating for someone like me. I'd love to get my hands on the person who lead him to be this way. He has so much potential to be a wonderful mate for someone but he shies away from it constantly.

Anyhoo, life in the widow hood happens fast and if you're not careful you may miss something that's important.

You can live again. I can live again and not feel like I'm betraying my husband. He'd want me to be happy. I'm not as happy as I could be but I'm not as sad as I used to be either. It will all come together. I know one thing for sure, if it's not meant to be...it won't. So I'm gonna stay on the train and ride it until it gets to the final station. Only then will I step off. It will have been a learning experience and I hope it will have changed both of us for the better.